I'm Your Ex With No Regrets

         They told me I’d regret this, they told me I should’ve stuck around even if I didn’t love him anymore, they told me to pretend.

They said, “He’s talented, can’t you see? This boy is going to become a super star. Stay with him.” even though they knew how I felt…

          I fell in love with him the moment I met him, when anyone asked me back then, when they wondered out loud, “What made you fall in love with him?” I always responded with a love-sick heavy sigh and told them: it was his smile, took three years for me to realize it was more than that. More than his smile, it has always been the way he smiled. The slow way his teeth always came into view as he threw his head backwards unconsciously.
        That was what I loved, that’s what made me fall in love with him..
I loved seeing him smile so much that it made me always want to see him smile, made me bend over so much, made me tolerate things I should never have…
  I wish I knew then that I was teaching him how to treat me, teaching him my boundaries and the things that I was okay with, maybe then our love story would’ve turned out so differently… if only I knew.
   
   But I didn’t, it started with the shouting, the gaslighting, the toxic manipulation, the intense mind games until we both drove our ship into an iceberg, intentionally.

      He was a very foolish teenager back then, he possibly might still be foolish, he might be a very foolish man right now.

After what’s happened today, I’m convinced he’s still very much foolish.

       He never processed his words properly, he was the exact opposite of me, I over analyzed things and he didn’t give things a second thought… Yin and Yan you say? More like Oil and Water to me.

      Daniel wanted to be a musician, his parents wouldn’t let him though, to them being a musician was not a career choice, it was ‘the will of a lazy child’.

        Daniel didn’t care as long as he didn’t need their blessings to showcase his talent, so Daniel secretly got signed to a label, a music label so good he used up his full month’s allowance to join.

A label so good it pushed him straight into limelight, our relationship-wreck unfortunately couldn’t stand that.

         They wanted to hide me, I wasn’t good publicity for an upcoming musician who was as good looking as him, Daniel agreed so quickly to their demand and he didn’t need to say more.
      I called the relationship off. He didn’t like that, he didn’t want that.. But what else could he do than send his silly ass-kissing friends over to persuade me.

He was such a foolish boy. The last time I saw him he was in my living room while I was in my bedroom with Laiola and Trisha, they told me I’d regret this.. While they told me I should stick around even if I didn’t love him anymore, they told me to pretend.
     They said, “He’s talented, can’t you see? This boy is going to become a super star. Stay with him.” even though they knew how I felt…

      What a silly bunch, five years later and I don’t regret anything… especially not after his outburst on Twitter.

His management definitely worked over time with Daniel, I wonder how they slipped up so bad.

He threw a sub at me, the classic ‘you broke my heart and I turned my tears into riches, thanks bich, I hope you look at me right now and regret leaving me’ shade.

      No Daniel, you’re wrong… If I could go back five years to change anything, I’d go back and do The Big Chop earlier… Not stay in a relationship that hung on a thread, in a relationship I was unhappy in.. A relationship you told me I had to deny in public, a relationship you abused… no Daniel, you’re wrong.

  I’m elated I was the main inspiration behind your record breaking songs.
I’m happy you’re successful and your parents accepted your music career.
But.
I’m glad what we had was destroyed, I’m really glad because,
I’m your ex with no regrets