Suicidal

Disclaimer: I'm angry for a reason.

Alot of you have suicidal friends. Friends that POST about wanting to die.

Posts you've seen and just scrolled by with the 'This one just needs attention' thought going through your mind.

You lie to yourself and say they're chasing clout. Clout how? Clout why?

Because wanting to be known as someone who was suicidal is good rep?

You even lie to yourself. You don't say 'Naaa. I don't care about you. Die if that's what you want to do.' You tell yourself 'Everybody now wants to be depressed.'

You don't acknowledge the truth. Instead you lie to yourself so you can lie to the world when and if their death is announced.

So you can say. 'Wow. I didn't hit her/him up because I thought it was all fake.'

You're fake. Because even if it were fake. You didn't know that yet.

Even if it were fake. Telling someone. Reminding someone you care is NO SIN.

The world has conditioned you all into thinking daring to be vulnerable in this world... is 'fake' that you'd rather scroll past than messaging that person.

But I actually don't believe that...

I think you do know what you're doing. You do know how they're feeling so you either a) Do NOT want their 'baggages'... you do not want the stress of caring about another human but yourself. You do not want to be selfless. You just DO NOT care about them *enough* to make an effort. You believe their death won't change anything in your life and that's what your subconscious whispers as you view their sometimes-not-subtle- plea for help. Plea for a friend. Plea for someone to care. So you scroll by.

Or b) No one answered your plea for help but still you 'bounced back' on your own. You did it alone. And so can they.

You scroll past because no one helped you when you needed help so you picked up the wrong mentality... you've not gotten over the hurt you felt from being ignored.. the loneliness that ate at you when no one batted an eyelid at you

And now that's the pain. The exact pain you want to inflict on them. 'I did not die. You will not die' Is a front 'I don't care about you because no one cared about me. Why don't you suffer? Do you think you're so special that you deserve help and I didn't?' hides behind.

The two sides are levelled. You're both terrible humans. (a) Is a selfish friend who you do not need, (b) Is a toxic friend who never healed.

(a) Can argue they had a lot on their plates going on to think about you.. or they had a lot of problems so why add you and that's perfectly okay. You're not entitled to their help. But also remember they're not entitled to your life. When and if you bounce back. And you should. You would. As long as you've cut (b) out of your life. As long as they do not have access into your life to be able to corrupt your mental health...

To me (b) Is the worst. (b) Is always going to be that friend who lies to the world... that friend who'd suddenly want to be associated with you when you're six foot under. That friend who'd suddenly 'care' when you no longer need it.

That friend who would now spend money, give attention, 'be there' for everyone. But you.

So if you're a suicidal friend... who's feeling alone. Stop POSTING because very rarely do people care. Instead channel those emotions. Those strong emotions that have you clawing at your skin and scratching your head yet, with a blank heart, channel those emotions not onto a status update. But unto a book. Draw. Write. Stab. Unto your phone. Tap. Draw. Write. Channel those emotions out of your body. Sing. Shout. Dance. Act. Kick. Punch the air.

Because (a) and (b) do not care about what happens to you now you're alive because it's not their job to... but it's yours.

Care.

GLOWING INSECURITY

I want you to realize some people literally glow in real life.

There's no snapchat lens, no 3rd party IG app, no editing. No nothing. Their melanin skin glows. Their light-skin glows and funny enough: Even their parents glow too, down to their great grandparents...

Most times, they don't even reply your comments when you ask 'Sis. Please drop your skincare routine' because THERE IS NO SKINCARE ROUTINE. It's all genes. GOOD GENES. Which your PARENTS COULDN'T GIVE YOU.

But, when they're down on some money or they just want the hype that comes with advertisement, they'd sign under a 'skincare' product as either a brand ambassador or as their new face...

They'd get this professional photographer who works with that brand to take beautiful shots of them, proper angles and everything and those photographers in turn would edit those pictures. Remove any slight blemish, add more 'glow' to their skin and then they'd drop those now-edited pictures on their social media profiles to announce they've been signed. Sometimes and not always, they'd even add pepper and salt 'So a TON of y'all have been asking about my skincare products, well.. it's all thanks to *inserts generic brand name*' which is actually JUST marketing.. can't blame them, they're not lying. They're just selling an image. And YOU. Ijeoma.

You Ijeoma with totally different genes gotten from her totally different parents with totally different lifestyle and habits would *fall*

Which is ALL those brands need. They need you to *fall*.

So they can use your insecurities against you. I don't get, don't you think they know what they're doing? Why they're ready to even spend millions just to get that *NATURALLY BEAUTIFUL, PERFECT LOOKING GIRL* to be the face of their brand?

Because that's a certain way to trigger your insecurities. Because then you see them...and you're like 'Wow. I need this soap. I need this cream. This that. That this. I need this.

But then what happens if you just can't afford it? You feed the Insecurity monster to the point you're depressed about being poor... Which all links back to marketing strategies.

Like 'Look at our brand face now. See how she's glowing. Don't you want to glow too? Just 50K ah' Brand face that probably WOULD NEVER USE THOSE PRODUCTS and this isn't me implying their products are generic or anything... they're all are good- at least most of them- they're just that. They're good. Not miracle working.

THEY CAN'T TURN AN APE INTO SNOW WHITE. Also this isn't me being rude or something... I'm speaking figuratively...

Being good means. If you use those healthy ingredients found in most products OVER TIME... OF COURSE YOU'RE GOING TO LOOK BETTER. But DON'T EXPECT TO SUDDENLY LOOK LIKE SOMEONE WHO WAS ALREADY BLESSED WITH GOOD GENES, JUST FROM USING THEM. Your skin is NOT going to GLOW.

Get out of the sun and exit your snapchat. You're NOT GLOWING. Marketing strategy, psychology branch wants you thinking you look good so you can continue patronizing and enriching them.

Side Note: People with good genes just open their cameras and their silky skin shows. Of course angle and all that matters but, they're not editing their radiant skin to shine because it already does.

That's how your insecurities stay just that. Insecurities. Because you've already set this impossible to meet target (impossible because you can't time travel, although if you can. HMU) so when you don't meet it. Because you CAN'T meet it. You begin to hate yourself. Marketing strategies are good. But you're already beautiful. You're beautiful.

Eat fruits, exercise and drink water... and watch how you build your own good genes.

When I have energy I'd talk about the people who Photoshop 😑

I'd talk about people like me 😝😝

WHITE FISH

What's the difference between blackface and blackfishing?

Blackface is done by white people who believe they are superior to black people, so they dress up in tattered clothes, darken their skin and perform with the aim of mocking black people.

Blackface isn't just about painting one's skin darker or putting on a costume. It invokes a racist and painful history. —CNN

Blackfishing is done by white people who believe "only-beauty-wise" they are inferior to another race, so they darken their skin, to look like that race.

(I personally do not believe this explanation)

What are the similarities between blackface and blackfishing?

They're both disrespectful

Also, at the end of the day/whenever blackfacers and blackfishers decided; they could easily just wash off the tar rubbed on their skin or the five-shades darker foundation applied on their face.

They could both stop "being" black.

Black people can't stop being black.

White people can always get those "black features"

Black people would never get "white privileges"